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借大牛之文回零陵 我们其实很后怕
西人说到Why climb,有如下总结。One person described climbing as "walking slowly uphill while feeling sick." With the rigorous physical demands and potential danger, why go? Some climb for the companionship. Depending upon one another for survival forges a strong bond. Others savor the sense of personal accomplishment. Junko Tabei, the first woman on Everest, said "Technique and ability alone do not get you to the top - it is the willpower that is the most important. This will power...rises from your heart." Many climbers experience the austere beauty of the upper mountain in a spiritual way. And climber George Leigh Mallory may have ironically summed it up best when he said, "What we get from this adventure is just sheer joy. And joy is after all the end of life."
从南台折返中台的路上,无疑我们三人都洗礼了一番。当斜坡上的道路在我眼前模糊,当大风把我们吹倒在山坡上,当寒冷从脖子灌进躯体,我想起去年一位女孩在灵山遇难的事件,于是一再问火鸟,那位女孩是因为心力衰竭吗?有几次想起《进入空气稀薄地带》里的斯科特,他在8000多米的高处失去意识,走向悬崖。每次我望向前方,是火鸟手中的电筒光在晃动,然后电筒转过来,形成一个光圈。而阿桂一直紧跟在我身后,不停的提醒:左脚往左!再往左!好,你到路上了!直走!大牛,加油!中台到南台的路线一直在脑海里,所以我就不停的想,现在哪里,还有多远。而实际上这些想法也只是掠过大脑,想的更多的是再走几步,到火鸟跟前,然后休息。在最后一段,进入一种类似婴儿的状态,在大人的指令下,站起来,控制身体平衡,摇摇晃晃的往前走,然后停下,耍赖皮般躺下休息。当阿桂在我耳边大喊:大牛,你看!那是什么?石墙!中台的石墙!我加速走过去。阿桂说:左边!大牛,左边!我左拐一些,直接倒在石墙下,双手撑地挪动身体,背靠在石墙上,在无穷无尽的狂风的裂口里。而阿桂和火鸟还要往下到山脊上把包背上来。
走在寂静的松林里,踏过堆积的松针,聆听林鸟的鸣叫,这是一种纯粹的快乐。走在漫长的横切路线上,双脚丈量过积雪和草垛,这是一种纯粹的快乐。站在中台顶上,眺望连绵的群山,趴在南台顶上,目送夕阳西下,云霞满天,这是一种纯粹的快乐。匍匐通过鞍部狭管效应加速的狂风,这是一种纯粹的快乐。当身处困境,你的兄弟是你的拐杖和导盲犬,这是一种颤动心灵的快乐。
谨把我的感慨献给带来快乐和痛苦的小五台,献给两位坚强而负责的男人,火鸟和阿桂。
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